Changed My Life: Oh Great God

So me writing this post is allowing you to know about a very significant part of my life, but I feel that I need to share this in my blog. Maybe it will help someone, and it does include the media.

When I was on my mission I had a transfer or so that was very hard, my companionship was difficult and I was doing a lot of soul searching. I call it my "Alma the Younger" experience because just like Alma;

"...I was racked with eternal torment, for my soul was harrowed up to the greatest degree and racked with all my sins" Alma 36:12

I thought a lot about who I used to be, the person I was at that current time; this experience changed who I am today.

I prayed probably more than any missionary has ever prayed to find peace with myself and to find forgiveness over every little thing I had done wrong in my life. I often turned to Alma and came to know him well, one day I opened up to Alma 5, I read through and answered every question, I answered them in regards to me and my life. I found that I could truly answer them the way God would have me answer them.

In verse 26 he asks "...if ye have experienced a change of heart and if ye have felt to sing the song of redeeming love, I would ask, can ye feel so now?"

With time, prayer, forgiveness and a song by Mindy Gledhill I was able to feel so now because the Atonement of Jesus Christ is real and heals all. I would ask you, "Can ye feel so now?" Because I know I can everyday!

I would listen to this song every night before bed, sometimes 2 or 3 times. As I shared my experiences with my Elder (now husband) he knew of this nightly ritual and some evenings joined me knowing I would be doing the same thing just a couple of hours after him. This song is very special to us and every time it randomly plays on the iPod we become quiet and just embrace the spirit.

Small Enough - Mindy Gledhill

Oh, Great God, be small enough to hear me now,

There were times when I was crying from the dark of Daniel's den

And I have asked you once or twice, if you would part the sea again

But tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky

Just want to know you're gonna hold me when I start to cry

Oh, great God, be small enough to hear me know

Oh, great God, be close enough to feel you now

There have been moments when I could not face Goliath on my own

And how could I forget we've marched around our share of Jerichos

But I will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight

Just want to know that everything will be alright

Oh, great God, be close enough to feel you now

All praise and all the honor be to the God of ancient mysteries

Whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history

But tonight my heart is heavy and I cannot keep from whispering this prayer

"Are you there?"

And I know you can leave writing on a wall that's just for me

Or send wisdom while I'm sleeping like in Solomon's sweet dreams

But I don't need the strength of Samson or a chariot in the end

Just want to know that you still know how many hairs are on my head

Oh, great God, be small enough to hear me now

If you haven't heard this song I ask you to go to the below link and listen, it is beautiful and has made such a difference to me

Small Enough - Mindy Gledhill